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Procrastinating doing my painting
So...
I still haven't said anything to my roommate after I found out she read my rather harsh entry about her. I feel like Harriet the Spy...you know the movie where the girl keeps a secret journal with a bunch of nasty things written about her friends and it eventually gets found--yeah...it's not that bad, I still feel that bad. I was irritated with her at the time I wrote it, but in retrospect, it wasn't a huge deal to begin with. It's just dishes and I do owe her an apology for writing such an irritated entry on the web about it. And she is the best roommate I've had so far which makes me feel even worse for complaining about it. She doesn't disrespect my things--or me...like my old roommate kinda did when she "sexiled" me (aka--kicked me out --- no, LOCKED me out of our dorm room while her and her boyfriend were having sex THE NIGHT BEFORE I HAD A BIG FINAL) then after I talked to her about it, she proceeded to tell her asshole of a boyfriend that I 'screamed' at her (which I did not) and in turn, he gave me an empty threat for me never to "Never fucking scream at her like that again, or else."
No, Erin's been very polite and respectful even though I complain about her sometimes. Not to mention, I've been one to get grumpy and just nit-pick about someone or something someone does for not a really good reason. Used to do it with my ex boyfriends and my friend Courtney all the time...and sometimes my bro. UGH! And I feel even worse because we had such a great day on Thursday when her aunt came up. The three of us talked a lot and we made biscotti and such...it was fun. Ugh...I ruin everything.
Ugh...tomorrow is Monday and that means going back to class. Arg. I haven't even started drafting the computer version of my set for scene design. Actually, I haven't really hand drafted anything either. All I have is a rough sketch. Blah.
My painting is due Tuesday and I've been very frustrated with it. The huge face has been really hard. The larger something is painted, the more risk there is for it looking distorted, I believe. Right now I'm having the "Painting I distortion syndrome" aka-alien eyeballs, long nose, tiny mouth. the contours on the face make somethings look different than they really are. there is space between the lower lip and the crease right before the chin and I don't know what my problem is. I have to mix all new colors because the ones I have now are exceptionally muddy. Then again....arg. Okay...I kindof wanted to compose it based off of how I might compose a landscape...here, I drew this just for you!!
Okay, so it's kinda blurry...but yeah...I just drew this quickly on Paint. As you can see, there is a central figure, which is the largest. It, however, is not in the foreground. The figure that is mostly in the foreground is the one on the left that is black and blue, I think I will paint it in very warm colors so it advances.. the figure that is most in the background is the one on the right, and it is painted in mostly pthalos, but I neutralized it into a greenish color so it would recede. Then at the bottom, I don't know if you can distinguish it at all, but there are two figures laying horizontally--kindof like a literal horizon....or ground. The figure on the right is of a back, and the figure on the left is the front. They are somewhat in the foreground...but one is much more intense than the central figure, and the other is in lighter shades--they advance more than the central figure. There is nearly no negative areas. It's all covered in figure, which I feel should mean that some of the figures should recede enough to become like negative shapes.
There isn't much depth in this painting, and I'm trying to decide if there needs to be. I thought since there is a lot going on that maybe there should be since its all kinda jumbled. I also think my composition is kinda backwards. I usually like my compositions to be heaviest on the right, because of the whole reading corner idea--that your eyes naturally sweep from left to right...but with my composition this way, i'm afraid since the foremost figure is on the left, and the face is dead in the middle top, that your eyes will get stuck there and not really move on to the Right side of the painting. Maybe I'm hoping for people to look at the face first, then the left figure, then down that figure, along the bottom, then back to the top again. Like in kindof a 'U'.
I had Matt sit down with me and look at it. I've never seen any of his painting work (or much of his 2D work at all) but I trust his insight. He knows how to talk about art and he's been through critiques and such. He says the face does need work, but that it's not as bad as I think it is. He also thinks I have a good 'start' on the painting (hahaha...ugh) and that it's going in a good direction.
So I have today and tomorrow to finish it. Matt is going out Monday night so I was hoping to get it done by tonight so we can take it over to Loveland in his car so I won't have to carry it over there (It's been rather rainy). Maybe after he gets back on Monday, even if it's late, he'll help be get it over there.
I feel like I will get it done, but if I get it done well is another thing...arg.
I went over to Matt's last night and I kinda feel like I was an intruder during a guy's night. Matt, two of Matt's roommates and a friend of his were all sitting around drinking some beers and watching/making fun of SciFi horror movies. It wasn't so bad though.
Ugh...horror movies....
I did mention to you that I have a weird post-traumatic thing with horror films and blood ever since Alyssa died, right? And plus the fact that I'm already paranoid about people dying and I don't need anymore brutal/visual ideas about how people can be killed. Plus I've developed a rather sensitive "sympathy pain" thing. You know when you see someone getting surgery on tv and that place on you body hurts? When Alyssa died, my neck hurt all week and I actually took Advil to see if it would work on psychologically created pain. Weird.
At first they were watching "See No Evil" and I didn't look at the TV a whole lot, but I could hear it and I really started to feel sick. Eventually though I decided just to look at the screen. They were just movies, and on top of that they were really horrible SciFi movies. We pretty much just made fun of them the whole time--they were the classic "group of attractive young adults are alone somewhere and get killed one by one by some really gross, creepy looking men" kindof thing. I think it helped that they weren't really good at all...and really ridiculously cheesy, plus they were on TV which probably means they couldn't be TOO gruesome or they'd have to be edited. I'm actually kindof proud of myself...I watched two horror movies and I'm okay! Hah...
Wow, this is a really long post.
Later.
I still haven't said anything to my roommate after I found out she read my rather harsh entry about her. I feel like Harriet the Spy...you know the movie where the girl keeps a secret journal with a bunch of nasty things written about her friends and it eventually gets found--yeah...it's not that bad, I still feel that bad. I was irritated with her at the time I wrote it, but in retrospect, it wasn't a huge deal to begin with. It's just dishes and I do owe her an apology for writing such an irritated entry on the web about it. And she is the best roommate I've had so far which makes me feel even worse for complaining about it. She doesn't disrespect my things--or me...like my old roommate kinda did when she "sexiled" me (aka--kicked me out --- no, LOCKED me out of our dorm room while her and her boyfriend were having sex THE NIGHT BEFORE I HAD A BIG FINAL) then after I talked to her about it, she proceeded to tell her asshole of a boyfriend that I 'screamed' at her (which I did not) and in turn, he gave me an empty threat for me never to "Never fucking scream at her like that again, or else."
No, Erin's been very polite and respectful even though I complain about her sometimes. Not to mention, I've been one to get grumpy and just nit-pick about someone or something someone does for not a really good reason. Used to do it with my ex boyfriends and my friend Courtney all the time...and sometimes my bro. UGH! And I feel even worse because we had such a great day on Thursday when her aunt came up. The three of us talked a lot and we made biscotti and such...it was fun. Ugh...I ruin everything.
Ugh...tomorrow is Monday and that means going back to class. Arg. I haven't even started drafting the computer version of my set for scene design. Actually, I haven't really hand drafted anything either. All I have is a rough sketch. Blah.
My painting is due Tuesday and I've been very frustrated with it. The huge face has been really hard. The larger something is painted, the more risk there is for it looking distorted, I believe. Right now I'm having the "Painting I distortion syndrome" aka-alien eyeballs, long nose, tiny mouth. the contours on the face make somethings look different than they really are. there is space between the lower lip and the crease right before the chin and I don't know what my problem is. I have to mix all new colors because the ones I have now are exceptionally muddy. Then again....arg. Okay...I kindof wanted to compose it based off of how I might compose a landscape...here, I drew this just for you!!
Okay, so it's kinda blurry...but yeah...I just drew this quickly on Paint. As you can see, there is a central figure, which is the largest. It, however, is not in the foreground. The figure that is mostly in the foreground is the one on the left that is black and blue, I think I will paint it in very warm colors so it advances.. the figure that is most in the background is the one on the right, and it is painted in mostly pthalos, but I neutralized it into a greenish color so it would recede. Then at the bottom, I don't know if you can distinguish it at all, but there are two figures laying horizontally--kindof like a literal horizon....or ground. The figure on the right is of a back, and the figure on the left is the front. They are somewhat in the foreground...but one is much more intense than the central figure, and the other is in lighter shades--they advance more than the central figure. There is nearly no negative areas. It's all covered in figure, which I feel should mean that some of the figures should recede enough to become like negative shapes.
There isn't much depth in this painting, and I'm trying to decide if there needs to be. I thought since there is a lot going on that maybe there should be since its all kinda jumbled. I also think my composition is kinda backwards. I usually like my compositions to be heaviest on the right, because of the whole reading corner idea--that your eyes naturally sweep from left to right...but with my composition this way, i'm afraid since the foremost figure is on the left, and the face is dead in the middle top, that your eyes will get stuck there and not really move on to the Right side of the painting. Maybe I'm hoping for people to look at the face first, then the left figure, then down that figure, along the bottom, then back to the top again. Like in kindof a 'U'.
I had Matt sit down with me and look at it. I've never seen any of his painting work (or much of his 2D work at all) but I trust his insight. He knows how to talk about art and he's been through critiques and such. He says the face does need work, but that it's not as bad as I think it is. He also thinks I have a good 'start' on the painting (hahaha...ugh) and that it's going in a good direction.
So I have today and tomorrow to finish it. Matt is going out Monday night so I was hoping to get it done by tonight so we can take it over to Loveland in his car so I won't have to carry it over there (It's been rather rainy). Maybe after he gets back on Monday, even if it's late, he'll help be get it over there.
I feel like I will get it done, but if I get it done well is another thing...arg.
I went over to Matt's last night and I kinda feel like I was an intruder during a guy's night. Matt, two of Matt's roommates and a friend of his were all sitting around drinking some beers and watching/making fun of SciFi horror movies. It wasn't so bad though.
Ugh...horror movies....
I did mention to you that I have a weird post-traumatic thing with horror films and blood ever since Alyssa died, right? And plus the fact that I'm already paranoid about people dying and I don't need anymore brutal/visual ideas about how people can be killed. Plus I've developed a rather sensitive "sympathy pain" thing. You know when you see someone getting surgery on tv and that place on you body hurts? When Alyssa died, my neck hurt all week and I actually took Advil to see if it would work on psychologically created pain. Weird.
At first they were watching "See No Evil" and I didn't look at the TV a whole lot, but I could hear it and I really started to feel sick. Eventually though I decided just to look at the screen. They were just movies, and on top of that they were really horrible SciFi movies. We pretty much just made fun of them the whole time--they were the classic "group of attractive young adults are alone somewhere and get killed one by one by some really gross, creepy looking men" kindof thing. I think it helped that they weren't really good at all...and really ridiculously cheesy, plus they were on TV which probably means they couldn't be TOO gruesome or they'd have to be edited. I'm actually kindof proud of myself...I watched two horror movies and I'm okay! Hah...
Wow, this is a really long post.
Later.